HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE THE AMBIANCE?
Amazing. It's not your typical cover because it was never meant to be a cover. But it's very "Pearl Jam", and something they would've made. I would give it to them for free. But it sounds like a bootleg recording of a live show with a cell phone. The person recording was standing near some decent monitors and somehow, there is no crowd noise. That's exactly the ambiance of this song.
WHAT WAS YOUR INSPIRATION?
This entire song was meant to be. It's hard to explain, but I will try. The first CD I ever owned was the Pearl Jam VS album. I wore that CD out. As a matter of fact, I still have that CD stored away somewhere. I believe it was 1993. I think the song after this is, Elderly Woman Behind the Counter in a Small Town. Actually that's not true. This is song 8, Rats is 9 and Elderly is 10. Anyway, I had those two songs on repeat a lot. When people say that they "identify" with songs, I'm not sure what that means, but if it's anything like what I mean, then, this is probably the first song I truly identified with. I associate this with the relationship I've always had with my father - mostly not good.
When I started recording back in late 2019, I had never recorded myself singing, as in Ever. As a matter of fact, this is the first time I ever sang for real, and actually let anyone listen to it. And when I say "first time", I mean... I sang this one time. What you hear is the first of the first time. I had the song already written, and I was trying to write lyrics for the first time in my life, and nothing sounded good. I was tripping all over the place and had no fluidity. I had no voice. So I thought why not use lyrics I already know by memory? At this point, I'm not even sure the lyrics will fit, and I don't know how good I'm going to sound, but I just closed my eyes and let it rip. I really love this song, and have thought about writing new lyrics so I can release it, but I refuse to. I know this song was meant to be, and if I never get permission to release it officially... then so be it. I mean, what are the chances that the first CD album I own, and the first song I sing on some 26 years later, happens to collide, unintentionally? The greatest part about this song, or story, is that Rearviewmirror helped me find my voice when I was 13 and when I was 39. It's very ironic.
DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE PART?
You will only hear me say this once ever, but the vocals. I might be deaf a bit, but I'm pretty sure I sound like Eddie Vedder. I think you could fool a lot of people, even hardcore fans, that this is a really him - really Pearl Jam.
CAN WE EXPECT TO SEE THIS SONG ON THE NEXT ALBUM?
Not likely. I'm not even sure I'm allowed to have this posted, to be completely honest.